I was looking for something in one of my notebooks and I came across some Morning Pages I had written in 2008, before HB08.
Morning Pages January 15, 2008
“I do just want to have a baby. I want to grow something inside me. I want to feel life. I want to experience that primal and raw experience of giving birth to a soul. I want to name someone and dress someone. I want to give my girls a sibling. I want to create best friends in my children. In this vast, wide city, I want a group to call on. Individuals who can support and love each other during theses dark and hopeful times. I want reinforcements and I do believe that despite my fears and misgivings that I can succeed at this.”
I really did wait for a long time. No matter how I tried to shake that desire, it just stayed with me. Finally got my little Pickle. So happy.
Today my entire family will gather as a complete group for the first time ever. The last time we were all together was probably in 2010 and since then little Pickle has joined our tribe.
