Breaking Free


Today marks the first day in over 2 years that I have not swallowed a brain pill.
I know why the caged bird sings. by Maya Angelou

The free bird leaps
on the back of the wind
and floats downstream
till the current ends
and dips his wings
in the orange sun rays
and dares to claim the sky.

But a bird that stalks
down his narrow cage
can seldom see through
his bars of rage
his wings are clipped and
his feet are tied
so he opens his throat to sing.

The caged bird sings
with fearful trill
of the things unknown
but longed for still
and his tune is heard
on the distant hill for the caged bird
sings of freedom

The free bird thinks of another breeze
and the trade winds soft through the sighing trees
and the fat worms waiting on a dawn-bright lawn
and he names the sky his own.

But a caged bird stands on the grave of dreams
his shadow shouts on a nightmare scream
his wings are clipped and his feet are tied
so he opens his throat to sing

The caged bird sings
with a fearful trill
of things unknown
but longed for still
and his tune is heard
on the distant hill
for the caged bird
sings of freedom.

I have been set free from my Keppra Kage. It’s been 6 weeks weaning off of what I now consider to be debilitating drugs.

As part of my new start to life, I got the med tag on my bracelet replaced with a birdcage charm.  It serves as a reminder to me of how I am free now and I need to take full advantage of that. The bird inside swings.

It’s also fitting because KAGE is my blog name. It’s my initials with an e at the end to change the pronunciation from KAG (rhymes with BAG) to Kage (like cage). Writing as Kage throughout this ordeal has meant the world to me. My readers have given me such amazing support. Thank you.

Keppra has been my cage for 2 years. I never knew just how imprisoned I was, until I gradually separated myself from it. Words simply cannot express how great it feels to be rid of it.  To quote Samwise Gamgee from Lord of the Rings: “Then let us be rid of it, once and for all….”

Every cell in my body hopes for this….once and for all….please.

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11 responses to “Breaking Free

  1. It’s your personal 4th of July! So happy for you!

  2. Congratulations. It’s independence day, girl. Embrace it in its entirety – do it for the both of us :)

  3. You have a new chapter to write. Each new day will be met with greater appreciation and enthusiasm. Live freely and smile your beautiful smile.

  4. I love this. I love the charm. I love the poem. You have been through so much and I only hope that the future is bright!!!! It must feel amazing to BE YOURSELF. Congrats! You did it.

    • Kristy Glass

      I talked to carrie today and she said I sounded hyper. That was just fine with me.

      Sent from Kristy Glass’ iPhone

  5. Congratulations. Very, very beautiful.

  6. So awesome. I am so happy for you.

  7. kristie larsen

    wahoooooooooooo!!!!

  8. Kristy congratulations! May your “new you” be better than ever! I wish you all the best as life resumes it’s strength and fullness for you!

  9. love it!

  10. Hugs to you, my friend.

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